To Sia...

No matter which path you follow in your journey of life, you have to take decisions. Minor, major or whatever the magnitude, each and every decision changes your life. If you look deep inside you, you will find that most decision-making processes are a tug-of-war between your head and your heart and they (never really knew who this 'they' are...but its always easy to blame others!) say that those people whose heads win in most of the decision-making processes are the most intelligent and 'practical' people in the world. And for those who 'let' their hearts win, the tags are 'emotional fools', 'impractical', 'irrational' and so on...

I took a decision today that went right opposite to everything my heart said, so does that make me intelligent and practical? I guess that's why they (again!) say life's complicated!
Its just that there are people in your life whom you trust blindly even when they've hurt you and hurt you and hurt you infinite times over...and there are some people who try so hard to do things you want and the way you want too, but you never ever really get to trusting them wholeheartedly. There's always an 'if?" at the back of your mind...

Today I conscientiously decided to listen to my head and not to my heart. And even if they (its like a habit no..?) say that life's happier if you listen to your head and there are less complications and lesser tensions and blah blah blah!... I'm not feeling the least happy!!!

To decide to cut off that single person from life whom I had probably trusted the most in my life is one of the most difficult decisions i have ever taken. I say this even after acknowledging the fact that the person has left no stones unturned to hurt me, betray my trust, and also treated me horribly...I had still trusted the person...and no, that wasn't a conscious decision. Somewhere deep down, I heard my head telling me I'm wrong...but it just felt SO right. Friends say that I have done the right thing now(didn't know right deeds hurt so much...), logic says "PERFECT" and I sit baffled and confused... How can a right decision feel so wrong?

They(seriously now!!) say truth is bitter... oh this I absolutely agree with... But I can't deny one thing...the head's feeling lighter and the heart heavy (a responsibilty's gone...but so has a relationship)...two organs in the same body...yet so distant, so opposite..connected by the circulatory system, yet so not in touch with each other!

The wait for the one decision in my life when they'll agree in unison continues...